Hey Buddy

I love you.
You are so beautiful.
You smile when I come to get you from your nap.
You smile when I kiss your cheek.
You smile when I kiss your little Buddha belly.
You look at me with your bright blue eyes.
You smile when I say, “Boo!”, “Where’s Mommy?”, “Who’s that?”, “Is that the doggie?”
You lay on me and take 2 hour naps when we are both exhausted and didn’t sleep the night before.
You sleep on my chest at 2 in the afternoon with the dogs at our feet.
I pick you up and give you tickles and you smile and burst into laughter that radiates my heart
You smile so big Dominic. I’m going to miss you.
I love you buddy.
You don’t know how much and never will until maybe one day you have one of your own.
You have no idea how much I am going to miss you on Monday Son. None. I don’t think I knew how much I would miss you until it actually was going to happen.
I love you buddy.
You will never know the road I traveled to be with you these past 6 months.
Months that I never should have been here with you, but I am truly blessed I have been.
I will miss you buddy. I’m sorry.
I can’t think about turning you over to another person right now.
It hurts me.
I hear you snoring right now.
I feel guilty.
I love you.
You are my snuggle bear buddy.
I wish I could stay home with you and raise you myself.
Your toothless smile warms my heart more than a thousand suns.
I love coming into your room after you have been sleeping and you turn your head back to me while you smile.
I love it when you raise yourself up on your little soft belly, look at me through the crib and smile.
I’m going to miss you.
Hey buddy? Are you hungry? Want a bottle? Want some sweet potatoes?
Where is piggy? Want to go bye-bye’s?
Hey buddy? Daddy loves you.
I’m sorry, but I have to go to work now.